ms rico subliminally made me her bitch!

No longer feeling human. Losing what was once the best connection I had with myself, I am here and no longer being. gaaah

Want to take pictures of the outcome with a little labor, but you know, I’m scared, and its not like people “need” to know.

Just so I can experience his licks on my cheek every morning.

On a test of courage last night. Was suppose to ask a waitress for her number at buffalo wild wings, everytime i began an attempt, i froze in pussiness. it was fun in the end. haha

These should be my only expenses, school, car. This is very easy is to upkeep, yet why can’t I? A strong individual I am not. So much temptation requires just as much discipline, and all it does it grow.

aw man, who wanted to cuddle

Bought multivitamins today, and fish oil. Should go well with my tea and honey. Really trying to be completely healthy besides my current hobby. I mean I can’t let my self go entirely. One has to respect their self, to some degree and I want some quality in life right now. Quantity isn’t my thing. Even Bought my mom vitamins, thinking about buying those as a gift for anyone who wants. All this and why? Because I think capitalism is getting away with way to much. Why would anyone accept anything lower than what they deserve? ah im turning into a health addict. Anywho, met some road bikers on the bike route today, I was in awe with the fact it was a couple, and they looked cheesy together. Simple is best.

Sometimes there’s a limit, a time where I can just tell myself stop. Too bad I never listen to my head. Not to sure if my persistence or stubbornness comes from my gender or who I am, but its not because I’m stuck in the feelings of the past. I only think about how great the future will be with you in it. Its not wise to let great people away. Its like that.